This is part three in a series of posts on Christian identity (Part One; Part Two). In the comment section of part one a pastor of youth (who, BTW, has a great blog) remarked:
I find, more and more, in my youth and in numerous counseling situations w/ adults that we DO have an “identity crisis”…and we have this “crisis” precisely because we go to the wrong places to find the answers to our identity crisis. I know I need the Gospel EVERY DAY…or I quickly buy into what the marketers are selling me.
I have lived long enough to learn from experience that if I am not actively finding my identity in the gospel, I will find it somewhere else. There is never a moment where I am not locating my identity in something. If I’m not locating it in God’s gospel, I will seek to be defined by something that was never meant to define me. We were not created in the image of vocational success, sexual fulfillment, money, or any other good yet created thing. No, we were created in the image of God and God alone; and although the image of God in man was profoundly defaced by sin, it is renewed in us by the power of the gospel. Only in the gospel is our God-given identity renewed and restored. Without the gospel we leave ourselves no other alternative but to live as if we were created in the image of some finite thing—something that ultimately has no life-stabilizing weight (Romans 1:23-25). This is idolatry. Paul Tripp writes:
Our deepest problem is that we seek to find our identity outside the story of redemption…Only as we see our story enfolded in the larger story of redemption will we begin to live God-honoring lives. Lasting change begins when our identity, purpose, and sense of direction are defined by God’s story (Instruments in the Redeemer’s Hands, 28-29).
It is my intention in this series entitled “An Identity with Weight” to bring the gospel—the transforming story of God’s redemptive activity in the Messiah—to bear upon this identity crisis.
If you recall from part one, Paul informs us in 2 Corinthians 1:8 that the affliction he experienced in Asia was so great, burdening him beyond his strength, that he despaired of life itself. Paul writes, “We were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself.” Things were so bad that he, according to verse 9, felt as though he “had received the sentence of death.” In other words, his afflictions were of such weight and severity that he actually lost all hope of living. Yet three chapters later we read these apparently contradictory words of Paul, “We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair” (2 Corinthians 4:8). He despaired but does not despair. How are we to understand these two passages together?
Let me suggest that at the time when Paul “despaired of life itself” (2 Corinthians 1:8), he was, in some measure, locating his identity in the wrong place. This is what I think accounts for these apparently contradictory texts.
Why do I think this? One reason is due to Paul informing us of the divine-purpose behind the severe afflictions he endured. Paul tells us that he was brought to the point of despairing of life itself in order “to make [him] rely not on [himself] but on God who raises the dead” (2 Corinthians 1:9). What might this purpose statement imply? Paul was like all of us in this way, namely, that in times of trial and temptation his default mode was to rely, in some measure, upon himself and not upon the God of the gospel. So what did God do with Paul? He ordained that while he was in Asia Paul would be “burdened beyond his strength” (2 Corinthians 1:8) in order to further refine the reliance activity of his heart .
So, what is happening in chapter 4 when Paul says that he was “perplexed, but not driven to despair” (v. 9)? The text seems to indicate that at some point in those moments when he despaired of life itself, he experienced afresh the resurrecting power of the God of the gospel. Paul was burdened beyond his strength so that he might learn to rely on the “God who raises the dead,” so that his functional identity might continue to be transformed as he received a deeper experience of the resurrection power of God in the Messiah (2 Corinthians 1:9). It seems to me that when we look at 2 Corinthians 1 and 4 together we learn that it was through the fresh application of the gospel that Paul was delivered from that particular identity crises in Asia, that is, that he was delivered from relying upon himself more than he relied upon God. Paul experienced what he experienced so that his sense of “identity, purpose, and sense of direction” would increasingly be defined by God’s story of redemption.
If we are to resist our culture’s marketed identities, we need our minds to be renewed by the identity-transforming power of the gospel.